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08 dicembre Oh my god I posted!!Hello everyone. After a solid month I'm here and thought I would drop a line. I should be sleeping seeing that I have to work at 7pm to 7:30am tonight but alas I can't sleep. This night shift thing is gonna kill me I swear. Anyone out there who works nights I'm feeling your pain. I gotta get my butt back to days as soon as possible. Patients is the name of the game though. I'm low man on the totem pole as far as that goes. I just have to wait for my opportunity to move up when a day position opens. Seniority is a wonderful think but it can also suck! Work has been going well. I've seen some awesome things and have been learning a lot. I watched an open heart surgery which I was so excited about, however, the woman died at the end of surgery. It was a learning experience to say the least. It was one of those situations that was extremely sad, but nothing could have been done. It's yet another one of those days I go home and think, life is so precious. I'm not affraid to die really. I've seen a lot of death for someone who is 25 years old and I'm not scared of it. Most people my age are. It's okay, it can be a scary thing. What scares me is not having family and friends who care about you and remember you after you're gone. Going through your life and at the end you never touched someones life, you weren't loved/cared for. That's scary to me. Death can be a positive thing in some situations. I never want to suffer that's for sure. Okay, I'm sorry about that. Not many people like to read a post that's depressing. In all actuality, I'm not really writing for anyone except myself so I guess it doesn't matter. There are things that have been going really well in my life and things that aren't going so well. A couple of weeks ago we found out my dad will probably need a heart transplant. The MD said, "maybe in a year, maybe in 5, but you're a candidate." Insert fist into my stomache, fall to my knees, and try my best not to throw up. How the heck to you take news like that. We all didn't take it so well. Thus, I switched on nurse mode and I don't have to be so consumed by the news. I can answer everyones questions without falling apart and be strong when everyone needs me. I think it's the oldest child's job to finally return the favor to your parents and everyone in your family by being the strong one that everyone can lean on. Anyway, that's all I have time to post right now. I hope everyone is having a lovely holiday season!! Take care and enjoy yourselves.
Amy 08 novembre Hello!!Well here I am. Back at my space just to drop in for a few. I feel like I've been neglecting it horribly. Work has been kind enough to give me a "study day". Basically a day off to account for all the studying I've been doing on my own time and to go to the library and look up different modules. Boy do I need it!! I'm starting to get really nervous about being on my own though. I start night shift on Thanksgiving day and I have two days to get oriented to that shift and then I'm on my own. It's difficult to explain but I'm scared that I won't be able to do what I need to do on my own. There has been so much to learn that my brain doesn't seem to want to hold it all. I'm starting to have difficulty wrapping my head around a few things and then remembering them when I've understood. Anyone else have that problem? It's like you put one thing in and it bumps something else out to make room. ARG!! That's not supposed to happen! :) heehee The fall has been beautiful here and unfortunately I haven't been out much to enjoy it. I have gone climbing again which was awesome as well as been trying to play ultimate frisby with a new group of people. It's cold but kinda fun at the same time. I'm looking to buy a fixer upper house right now for when I'm done with orientation. If I want to invest in real estate I need to start now while I'm young. My new schedule starting in January will be 12 hour night shifts 3 on 1 off 3 on 7 off. This is what I wanted and I'm really glad I got it. A whole week to work on me will be awesome. I can go on vacation or just chill from a hard week of work.
I need to get going and do some more studying. I hope everyone is doing wonderfully. I drop in to check my comments so leave one and say hi!!!
Take care,
Amy 16 ottobre I'm so sorry!!For anyone that actually comes by my space regularly I'm so sorry. I have been so busy with my new job I'm not sure if I can see straight. I've also been trying some new things with my free time in the evenings. Besides studying I've done a bit of climbing which was AWESOME!! I've always wanted to try it and now I know why, I love it!! It feels great to get to the top and look down at your accomplishment. I reccomend it to anyone who has been thinking about going. I've been trying to keep up with all my friends but not doing the best job. I just figured now is the time to enjoy myself so I'm focusing on my job and myself. Doing what I want to do, and I've been trying to be outside doing as much stuff as possible which doesn't leave me much time to sit at the computer and type. I have wnated to blog for a while, but I'm not exactly sure what I want to lay out there. My blogs have always been very personal, but lately I've felt like keeping things to myself a bit more. I'm not sure why either. I feel like I need to hold the special things in my life close and if I share too much I might not have it anymore. Does that make sense?
There have been some really cool things that I've seen at my new job. I pulled chest tubes (they drain fluid from around your lungs and heart), watched a SWAN catheter be put in, and pulled one out. I stablized a patient and readied to transfer him to a lesser area of care and then he went down hill a bit and was able to catch it. That felt great! My preceptor complimented me and told me that she wasn't sure she would have caught it. :) What a great feeling! I can't wait to continue to learn all the things I know are in store for me in the CICU. I needed this challenge to spice my life up. It's fun and I feel like I'm learning so much.
Okay I really need to get some stuff done so this is it for now. I'll try to write more later!! Drop me a comment and let me know how you are doing!!
Amy 06 ottobre Great BlogsI have read some really awesome thought provoking blogs lately and I wanted to share them with everyone. Writing on contriversial topics or ones that inspire many different thoughts is very difficult, however, I think it is amazing when someone can express their thoughts in an orginzed non accusatory fashion. Do not preach or try to convert, just share. Two heads are always better than one, we can learn and shape our beliefs from each person we talk to. New ideas and ways of thinking about things pass us every day, it is our job to listen, digest, and make discoveries inside ourselves.
These entries are coming from people my age, in their 20's. If only we all could speak up as they have. Our voice is so powerful we have no idea. Many just haven't formed their opinions yet. I would just like to say, keep an open mind!! Learn from others, do not close yourself to the thoughts of your parents and grandparents. Search out your beliefs for yourself and listen.
Check these out:
Toby - 10/4/05 Seperation of Church & State: Good Idea?
Kenny - 10/5/05 An Evolution of Faith
01 ottobre A Quick HelloI have been absolutely horrible about writing lately. What's my deal?! I've been busier than usual I guess getting ready for my new job. I'm so excited and so nervous at the same time. It's not that I can't do the job. Because I know I can. Just give me some time and I'll be the best CICU nurse I can be. I just need the time to learn all the new things that I will be encountering down there. I have no experience with Hemodynaics, ventilators, SWAN catheters, balloon pumps, etc. Lots of new machines to work with.
Anyway, enough of that. I had a good last week at my job. I wasn't feeling wonderful at the end of the week but I think that has to do with the weather. I feel the weather a lot. What the heck are you talking about you say? Well December 2001 I was hit by a UPS semi truck on the freeway. I had whiplash on my neck really bad. At least a year of physical therapy and continuing therapeutic massage etc. It hurts most of the time and I have to be really careful at work with proper lifting techniques etc. When the weather turns I feel it. Have you ever heard people talk about that? Well it's completely true. It goes from sunny to raining and my neck KILLS. I'm soar and I'm exhuasted. Such a wierd thing really.
I am buying a sunbox. I have done a lot of research and it really helps in the winter and rainy times with improving mood and feeling healthier. There have been a lot of studies on the subject and I'm sold. They are a little spendy but worth it if it makes ya feel better right!?
What has everyone else been up to? My comments and hits have really slowed down and I'm not sure if it's because I haven't been posting as much or everyone is busy this fall starting school and more work. I think it's the latter really.
I am really looking forward to working days for a while. I have been on evenings for 3 years and even though I'm not really a morning person it will be so nice to see all my friends and hang out with them after work like a normal person. Of course it won't last long but that's okay. At least I'll be able to enjoy it for a while!!
I have recently been getting into astrology. I think it's really interesting. A lot of it seems very accurate. I'm not completely sold on it though, I need to keep reading into it. I would really like to get my star chart done and my full astrological reading. I'm an aquarious but my rising sign is cancer. I think I'm more like a cancer than my true sign. Anyway, I will talk more about that in the coming days I'm sure because my grandma gave me some books to read on the subject and I've just gotten into them.
I need to go help my mom make dinner since I'm over visiting with the fam. I hope everyone is having a lovely weekend so far!!! :)
Amy 26 settembre WorkHello all of you out there in Blog Land. I really haven't been very good at keeping up. I've been pretty busy though so I think that's a valid excuse. I went by Crissy's space today and I'm featured! Thanks so much that means a lot to me. I hope you all have enjoyed reading my blog as much as I have writing it.
I had a great weekend at work. I don't get to say this very often so it's a special thing. Usually work is very stressful and I come home exhausted and at times discouraged. However, this weekend was great. It was my last weekend on my current unit which is sad because I have enjoyed working with most of the people there. I will miss the patients very much. I'll trade these people in for ones that are much more sick and less responsive. I will miss the interaction I have with the people that I take care of now.
Weekends are usually a little bit more quiet than during the week. Less doctors are around, less procedures, and just generally a more relaxed atmosphere (most of the time) which is nice. I had a great group of patients. One gentleman is very sick and has been in for about a month. As soon as he gets better something else happens to keep him with us. Through this he has smiled. He's a little frail old man but he has a great smile. His family is amazing. I rarely see him without some member of his family sitting with him keeping him company. I love to see this support. They are concerned but also know that we are there to help their dad, grandpa, uncle, etc and they are thankful of any minute we have to spend. I love this family. I have sit and just talked with them for many hours since he has been with us. These are the interactions that make my job so rewarding. I know that i have made an impact on their lives and helped a little through this time. My listening ear and words of support have helped. They may no remember my name, and forget my face eventually, but i know that they will remember his time in the hospital and think of all the people that took care of him with fond thoughts and thankfulness.
It's so important for me as a healthcare worker to take these moments and store them away for a rainy day when I wonder why I am doing this job. It's hard to be around sick people all the time. It is very easy to start to look at life very negatively and not think anything is worth it.
The other patient that I had is a mechanical heart patient. He was young and had a heart attack suddenly that completely wiped out the left side of his heart. He had to have an emergency VAD put in or he would die. So this poor man woke up with a machine in his body pumping his heart. This is a horrible reality. I spent most of my time with him this weekend. He was doing great, and then last week he was sick constanly. Couldn't keep any food down. It was a setback and he ended up on IV nutrition and nothing by mouth because of an ileus. I gave him a popsicle when he was feeling better and it was like the greatest present ever. I will keep the look on his face in my mind forever. It was pure joy. He told me he would never take food for grandted again. We walked, he was feeling better, his spirits lifted, and he started asking me questions on how his life would be. I shared with him about my father because they had similar situations with sudden heart attacks at a young age. This man's heart is worse than my dad's which makes me thankful. He appreciated me telling me about my Dad and how he has been coping with being sick. They are quite a lot alike. It felt so good to sit and talk with him. I can't really explain what it feels like to be the person that can really turn someone's attitude around. I shared that being positive with get hiim t hrough this. He will be waiting for a transplant and it could be hard.
I'm babbling about the situation, but I came home last night on a high. It was a great weekend to end my time on my current unit before I start on my new job. I had been feeling pretty negative about my work on the ACU, but now I feel really good. I really feel like I made a difference this weekend and I needed it as much as the patients did.
I start my new position on October 3rd. I'm very nervous but I've been talking to people who work down there and they have been so encouraging. They have been telling me I'll do great and not to worry. I think nervousness is healthy at this point and it will make me work that much harder to achieve my goals. I would like to share the experience so in a week when I start I will try my best to do so.
Thanks for listening!! I hope you all have an awesome week.
22 settembre ChillI have the candles
 lit and the house is clean.  The breeze  is blowing through the house with a fresh fall scent.  Perfect atmosphere for a good blog. Not my usual time to write but I have a few minutes before I should go through some mail  and study for my new job.  I had a great weekend.
 I spent 5 days with my sister  in Denton and we had a wonderful time. We shopped  , ate great food  , toured around Denton and Dallas  and just had a generally great time. My main goal was to just go and spent time with Bethy. Normally on vacation  I like to see and do as many things as possible but not this time. I miss her already!  It was really hot
 there, I must say. Over 100 degrees plus humidity.  You walk outside and imediately feel wet  and like you can't breath well. I'm glad I wasn't there during the hurricane  , I probably wouldn't have been able to get home. Bethy should be fine, this weekend they are expecting 50 mile  an hour winds  but they will be fine.It was quite a shock
 when  I got home and it was chilly  when I stepped outside!! No worries though, fall  is a beautiful season and I intend to injoy it. We ate at Cracker Barrel
 while we were there and boy was it good. Also, Texas Roadhouse  was yummy too, can't forget Cheesecake factory.  I LOVE CHEESECAKE!!! There was this awesome candle shop in downtown Denton that my whole family has seemed to fall in love with. It's called Wik. I reccomend it to anyone. Their scents  are awesome and the candles last forever.September is almost over. I can't believe it. With that comes the start of my new job. My first day is October 3rd. I'll be doing a lot of studying
 and learning a lot of new things so I don't know how much I will be able to blog. I'm hoping to tell about my new experiences but if I feel overwhelmed this will be the first to go I'm affraid. Work
 was good yesterday. After being on vacation sometimes it's hard to come back.  However, even though it was a super busy night I felt good about it. I had quite a few difficult patients to deal with, but I was in a good  mood and managed to cheer them up as well. Sometimes a smile  and a little extra attention is all people need. Being sick and in the hospital can be so scary  and we tend to forget that since we're there all the time and see these things every day. I worked out
 in the morning for about 2 hours  and it felt great. I haven't been to the gym  in a while and I really needed to go. Boy did I sleep well last night!!  I'm trying to train myself slowly but surely to get up earlier so the transition wont be so hard all at once. One of my fish died today.
 He was named Goldie and he was an orange goldfish.  He had a nice satisfying life in my fishtank. He is survived by his two brothers Spot and Nemo. He was laid to rest in the big ocean  of the afterlife. May he rest in peace.  Today has gone well so far. Went to an appointment. Talked on the phone.
 Visited my mom and dad.  Then went to MACY'S to look at the couch  I want to buy and get color samples. I'm almost positive I want to go with a Kahki color. I think it will go well with all the old maps in my front room. I'm really excited to get nice furnature for that room. It's time. I feel like my personal growth is going really well. It seems as time goes on I learn more and more about myself and other people, which in turn allows me to work on the things that I struggle with to become a better person. I have gone through a lot of different experiences this year and I've learned a lot from them. They were good and bad but I look at them each as a lesson. I don't want to be a person who throws a pity party and exclaims, "Poor Me!! Look at all the horrible things in my life!" In all honesty, I'm so lucky.
 I have a home that's mine.  I have a great job that supports me.  I have a loving and supportive family  that have been there no matter what. And I have good friends  that always lend me an ear or their time when I need them. How do you not feel lucky with all those positives in your life? I was going through a horribly negative time earlier and I have been able to work through it because of those things and focus on what is good. It's so hard to do sometimes but it's really very important. I really believe more and more that life is what you make of it and which light  you choose to look at it in. One person will see the same glass that is half full as half empty.  A breakup can be a horrible thing, an end to the best thing ever, or it can be an opportunity to focus on you and make you available to something even better.Well I need to get going with all my tasks for the rest of the day. I hope everyone is having an awesome week and I look forward to chatting with you all!!
 16 settembre DentonWell I'm finally here!! I made it safe and sound to Denton, TX but let me tell you it wasn't the smoothest traveling I've ever done. I left yesterday trying to get here a little earlier so that I could spend more time with my sister. I made the flight at home by about 5 minutes. It was all good, however, I wasn't feeling so hot from the night before let me tell you. I got to Seattle and when my 3 hour layover was almost over we found out that the flight was an hour and a half late because they had to replace the plane in Sacramento. Well unfortunately this meant I would miss my connection in Albequerque, NM and I wouldn't be able to get to Dallas/Love Field that night. Southwest didn't disapoint me though, they put us (there were 5 of us going to Dallas from that flight) in a nice hotel right by the airport and gave us a voucher for food at the restaurant there. I had a good dinner and then relaxed in my king sized bed. I would have rather been with my sister but I was just glad that I didn't have to spend the night in the hotel.
Unfortunately my flight left at 7am and with the time difference I only got 4 hours of sleep. I was pooped! Checked myself in just fine, but luck would have it they wanted to do a full search of me in the security line. I was nervous I would miss my flight but finally they were done. Of course I had to put everything back on, belt, socks, shoes, and lug all my bags back into position. The flight was uneventfull though and I landed right on time. My sister was there to meet me and boy was it awesome to see her. It's been a little over a month and I've missed her so much.
Can I just say that Denton is VERY HUMID. I'm not liking the humidity so much, but it was bearable today. Tomorrow it's supposed to be about 10degrees hotter so we'll see how I feel. We chilled out and I took a little cat nap while my sister went to class. Then her boyfriend came home and we all chatted a while and then I met some of her gradschool friends. They all seemed really nice.
We went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner and had an amazing steak. Yummy!! Much better than airplane pretzels and nuts let me tell you. They showed me around the campus of UNT (University of North Texas) after dinner and it seems really nice. Huge though. I'm used to a smaller school. Gonzaga had about 2000 undergrads when I went there, Bethy went to Whitworth for her bachelors and they only had about 2000, UNT has about 30,000 students. Quite a difference.
The crickets here are huge and there are swarms of small birds everywhere. Definately different from Washington. I'm looking forward to seeing some sights tomorrow. I know we'll have a great time no matter what we're doing.
Well I need to make myself go to sleep even though it's not that late my time. I hope everyone is doing wonderfully!!! Chat with you all later!
Night! :) 12 settembre Happy MondayYeah that's right, I said Happy Monday! Monday's aren't always bad. It's the end of the weekend, but that's okay. I haven't written
 much lately. I just haven't really felt like I've had anything interesting to say. The fair
 started this week and so far I've gone twice, thanks to friends who have gotten me in for free!  It's expensive! I went to the Rodeo  on  Saturday and had a good time. It was really cold though! Summer is definately done. I went out after the rodeo with some old friends that I haven't seen in a long time. We all had a really good time. Played  pool  and drank some beer.  I stayed up too late though and was pooped on Sunday. However, didn't let it get me down!! I ended up hanging out with friends at the mall  shopping. How ironic is it that I went with two guys and they bought stuff and I didn't!? heehee Then we went and watched  The Family Guy premier at some people's house that I didn't know. I almost fell asleep on the couch. Oops! Today I got up early and went to the hospital to help interview the candidates for our new Assistant Nurse Manager. I didn't think there was that much contest. The person I thought was the most qualified and would do the best job showed up and just blew the others out of the water. He was the only one who dressed up for the interview which I think is extremely professional and appropriate for an interview. The other two wore casual clothes. Definately doesn't show your best side I think. He was the only one who mentioned providing excellent patient care, which is the most important part of our job. I was really happy that I was able to participate. The rest of the pannel were all managers - I was the only staff nurse. I felt really good about it because they all thanked me and praised me on the questions I asked. They asked more manager questions and I tried to ask questions that would pertain to dealing with staff and more everyday issues instead of budget and other things which he would only be dealing with at meetings with the managers.
I think I could have done a really good job in that position, but I'm so glad that I am going to the CICU instead. I will be starting October 3rd!! I am nervous but I think that's a good thing. It will keep me on my toes and help me to work harder, prepair myself better for each day. I will be learning so many new things that I am going to have to be really focused.
The rest of the day has gone well. Work
was fairly steady and then I got to go home early. Woo Hoo!! I've been studying off and on since then. The candles are going and I have the relaxing music  on. I can't have anything that has words in it because I'll end up singing alone (as usual!) and then I wont focus on my content. I think everyone has their own styles of studying.
 My sister has to have it completely quiet with nothing around her. Other people I know like to have the TV on, radio, or bunches of noise from other people to study. Isn't it funny how different people are? I've been trying to think of a new song
 for my site, but I can't think of anything right now that really fits how I'm feeling so I've opted to keep it the way it is for now. A few people have asked me the artist. It's John Mayer, and the song is Daughters.For information on putting Media Player into your site, as well as a guestbook and other fun things, click on Da Kid's website - he's the first sight in my favorites list.
I hope everyone has had a lovely day!! I look forward to chatting with you all!!
 08 settembre What a DayWhat a day. I woke this morning
 and didn't want to get out of bed.  There are days when I wake up wide awake, and then others where I just want to lay there but I know I have to get up. I was up for a while and then went back to bed and caught a few more Zzzzz.  It was such a beautiful day  outside that I had to go play in the sun for a while. I talked on the phone with a few friends, watered all my plants  and trimed things up so they looked nice.  Did some dishes.  Played on the computer.  All that good stuff. I was in charge at work again today. Things were going fairly well all shift. We were extremely busy
 in the beginning but once we got things under control and most everyone settled in things were better. The end of the night came and one of our patients went nuts.  He punched his nurse in the stomach.  It took 5 of us to hold him down. As I was holding his legs he managed (I have no idea how) to kick me in the throat. I couldn't breath for what seemed like a couple of minutes,  but I'm sure were only a few seconds. I was able to get my wits about me and hang on to his legs  before he hit one of the two pregnant  co-workers that were holding one of his arms. I didn't want them to get bitten  or punched. We ended up putting this 83 year old man in 4 point leather restraints and sedating him. He still didn't calm down much. My throat does not feel good and I hope everything is okay. I haven't gotten hit that hard before. Little bit scary!! I'm alive though and it should be fine. I hope he clears soon. It's so upsetting for the family to see their loved ones like that.Okay so I didn't think that I would have anything interesting to talk about from work today so I thought about a topic to write
about. I want to talk about what I want in a relationship.  When I was laying in the sun  today I was thinking  about my thoughts when I'm in a relationship. I usually think, what can I offer this person. How can I make them happy.  What can I do to make their life better. What can I do make them want me around and keep me there. I'm finally realizing, this isn't the right way for me to think. Why it has taken me 25 years, I can't tell you. All I can say is that I've had more relationships this year than I have had in the past. I was in a 5 year relationship after high school and we almost got married. I decided it wasn't working because there were too many things that didn't make me happy and that didn't work between the two of us, unfortunately. I don't know where that went in the 2 1/2-3 years since we've been broken up, however, I believe I'm back on the right track, heading in the right direction. At least I'm trying really hard.
Here is what I've learned... I need to look at the other person and think, do they make ME happy, what do they offer to ME, do they make MY life better, do I want them around me, my family, and my friends, are they compatible with ME? Now this is hard for me to write down because I look at it and say, this is selfish, however, I need to focus on my needs sometimes instead of trying to make everyone else happy, I need to make myself happy. Instead of always giving in and saying, whatever you want to do, or it's okay if you don't want to do anything I want to do, or it's okay you don't want to meet my family or any of my friends, or it's okay you never want to spend time with me, talk to me, be faithful to me, etc.
Now you say, well do you actually know what you want? Yes, I do. I have thought about the ideal things I would like. I am not unrealistic. I know this list is not complete in any way and the "perfect" situation. A good relationship requires work and compromise and believe me I'm pretty good at it. But just for the sake of things, I'm writing down what my heart desires. If I am able to find a person that fits in somewhere in between I would be happy. I may be crazy but at 25 I feel like I'm ready. Here goes:
I want someone who loves to hold me, cuddle, and kiss me.
I want someone who enjoys and appreciates the little things.
Who loves to hold my hand.
Who loves surprising me.
Who wants to spend time with me, go out of their way to spend time with me.
Who thinks I'm interesting and intellegent and likes to talk to me.
I want someone who calls just because he's thinking about me.
Who can share what he's feeling.
Who wants to share me in his life with his family and friends.
Who knows I'm a romantic and tries to be sometimes.
Who plays with my hair because he knows I love it.
Who's proud of what I do and who I am.
Who think's I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread.
Who knows I'm not perfect but loves me anyway.
Who will hold me when I need to cry.
Who makes me laugh and laughs with me.
Who believes in being faithful.
Who is honest and has integrity.
Who can share an intellegent conversation with me.
Who loves to have a good time.
I want someone who likes to try new things.
I want someone who likes to have fun and go out and do things.
Who has enough energy to go out and DO those things we talk about.
Who loves to travel.
Who wants a family and values family.
Someone who is ambitious and wants to be successful and wants me to be successful as well.
Who likes to go out and spend time with my friends as well as his - together and seperate.
Who encourages me.
Who will give me constructive criticism when I need it and even when I don't.
Someone who doesn't put me down and make me feel stupid.
Who is understanding and kind.
Someone who is open minded but also has their own beliefs.
Someone who is a go getter and not lazy.
Someone who compliments me.
This list isn't exhaustive but it's enough for now. The funny thing is that these are a lot of the things that I feel and do with a person that I'm with. I put so much of myself into a relationship, maybe too much sometimes. Maybe this is the problem. Maybe it's too overwhelming for someone. It's hard because when there is something in my life, I give it my all, 100%. I never want to look back and say, I could have done better, could have tried harder. No regrets.
Well I think that's all for now. If you have any comments or words for me, I would love them. I hope you all are having an amazing week!! Goodnight.
05 settembre Seattle TripYou know, I have been sitting in front of the computer
trying to figure out how to start my blog. I have never had this problem before. Usually I sit down and the words just come flowing out. I don't arrange them in any way, I just let whatever I'm thinking travel through my fingers and end up on the page. However, for some reason I have too many thoughts about the weekend that are floating around my head that I'm having trouble getting them out.  Definately a new experience for me. Well here goes, we'll see how this turns out.I had an incredible weekend.
 It was a weekend celebrating  my  new job  , meeting new people  , and strengthening friendships with others.  I needed this more than I can even say. I almost didn't go. I haven't traveled  with any of my companions on the the trip before. I have had some rough times this summer I just didn't think about it much. Mindy dragged me out and I ended up having an amazing  time.  I am thankful for that.  We golfed
 all three days, we had a buggy  ride through Seattle, we shopped , we looked at the lights  , we drank , and we just had a great time. There wasn't anything profoundly special that we did, however I feel (and this is just me, I don't know about the rest of the group) that I made a special connection with each of them. I don't think I've ever just let lose  and be myself so much. I didn't feel self-conscious or worried  about what as going to happen in the future.  For once I lived in the moment and just let myself have a really enjoyable time. Not that I'm usually uptight and don't have fun because I do! For some reason, things just felt different. I can't really explain it properly. We visited an amazing place this Sunday night. We drove to Alki beach
 and got out of the car to look at the skyline of Seattle. I must say it was breath-taking. I don't usually enjoy big cities, but it made me want to live there. It was probably the most romantic situation I've been in since I can remember. We all know what a hopeless romantic  I am. Hopeless being the key word  I had a great time there.I am home
now and I wish that my weekend could have lasted a lot longer. Most of the time I'm happy to come home and sleep in my own bed etc, however, this time I wish I could have spent a few more days until I was back to the daily grind. I need to make it a point to spice up my life more. I work hard and I'm very ambitious, but I do need to have fun and laugh.
 I have never laughed  so much at one time! I'd love to be a little bit crazy  sometimes. That might be stretching it but I feel I'm always a work in progress, we all are. Live and learn, try to be a better person each day, and always remember that the sky is the limit.  We can do anything we put our mind to, no matter how difficult it may seem. I've been told my blog is purely personal. That's true. This is an outlet for my thoughts and feelings and whoever wants to comment on them is welcome. I've always been honest and I don't really feel like I have anything to hide from anyone.
On that note I am making spaghetti
 for dinner and I think my jumble of thoughts will soon turn to babble if I'm not careful. I'm not sure I'm completely done blogging on my weekend but this is enough for now. I will have pictures  soon I hope and I will post them later.I hope everyone had a lovely Labor Day weekend and I look forward to chatting with you!!
 02 settembre Good News!Okay here it goes...
Awesome news today. I got the job in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit!!!! I have been waiting a year for a position to open up. Circumstances beyond anyone's control came up a few times and prevented me from being hired so now is the time. I'm so excited. I will be going out of town this weekend to relax and have a good time and now I have another reason! I'm going to celebrate!!! This is one step closer to my goal of going back to school. This is such a huge step in the right direction for me I can hardly believe it! It will be a challenge and I'm goign to have to work hard, not to mention change my whole life around since I will be working on night shift, but it is completely worth it. Nothing worthwhile is easy! So on that note, I'm completely exhausted but happy with the day. I need to go pack. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!
            01 settembre HelloHey there. I haven't written in a bit so I decided I better update seeing that I will be out of town
for the weekend. My week has been going pretty well. My parents got back into town  on Tuesday and I had dinner with them. It was so nice to see them. It sounds like they had a really good time.My sister
started her first day of grad school. She sounds very stressed on the phone and says it's harder than she thought it would be. I know she'll do great, she always does. Bethy if you're reading this. We're so proud of you!!  Don't worry you're going to do great. It's just a new thing and you're nervous right now but you can do anything you put your mind to.I can't quite believe it's September already. I feel like this year is just flying by.
 I need to make sure I enjoy myself if life is going to fly by this fast. I haven't heard about the job yet. I'm still crossing my fingers.
 I will check in with her if I don't hear from her soon. I think it's always good to follow up with things like that. It lets them know you're interested and willing to put the time and effort into checking into things. I feel so bad for the people of New Orleans.
 I'm not able to watch the news  much but of the bits and pieces I've seen things look horrible. New Orleans is such a beautiful city full of life I can hardly imagine most of it destroyed and underwater. My thoughts and prayers are with the victims of the hurricane. I know there have been many deaths but keep up hope and rebuild.I think I will end this blog now. I don't really feel like I have much to write
about. I've just been doing my normal routines and there's only so many times you can write about soaking up the sunshine , playing in the yard , working out , etc. If I have an interesting night at work tonight I'll write another blog before I leave for the weekend. I hope everyone has a wonderful Labor Day weekend!! Have some fun and enjoy life!
  29 agosto ChillinWell everyone I am way tired.
 Wanna know why? Because I'm stubborn and I was bound and determinded to put that MSN Messenger thing on my site.  I happened to come across some MSN people's sites that had them and thought it was so cool so this very nice person:
I got the day off today which is awesome. Unfortunately, it's been overcase
 today with bouts of wind and rain  at times. We had such a beautiful weekend I guess we can deal with it.I am eating
 the strangest snack, popcorn  and lemonaide. It's not like it tastes wierd, but when you think of the two together it just doesn't sound right. That's okay though. The only thing I hate about popcorn is that it gets stuck  in your teeth.  I hate that. I'm one of those people who has to have my teeth clean.  I chew gum  after eating because I don't like that taste or feel of your mouth after you've eaten. I can't do much in the morning before brushing my teeth.  I was thinking
the other day... I am a person who likes my routines. When I list some of my deeply ingraned ones they sound wierd, but we all have our little idiosyncracies. I always do things in the same order in the shower.
 I always make my bed in the morning.
 I eat my hamburgers
 and sandwiches  around the edges in a circle till it's gone. When I'm getting ready for work
I do things in the same order always: dry hair  , makeup  , straighten - the same pieces of hair in the same order. (oh I'm a funny person)I save my longest french fries
 until last.Okay that's enough, I'm freaking myself out.
I think it's pretty funny actually. What kinds of things do you do like that? I have done
 lots of  cleaning  today  and now  I need to pay my bills.  I've been lazy  and just haven't updated my checkbook and done the bills so that's what I'm off to now. Even though the mail  has already been here. I need to go grocery  shopping  at  some  point today because I have no food in the fridge. No good! I hope you all have a wonderful day today! P.S. I hate popups!!!
28 agosto Random
Rising Sign is in 17 Degrees Cancer Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected. Sun is in 17 Degrees Aquarius. You get bored with the status quo and are generally open to new things and ideas. An individualist and a free spirit, your friends are quite important to you as long as they do not try to tie you down by making too many emotional demands on you. Your thoughts are offbeat and you're a bit eccentric, but not always very changeable. As a matter of fact, you can be quite stubborn at times. Very fair-minded when dealing with large groups or broad issues, you are not always emotionally sensitive to the needs of individuals. Extremely objective, with good powers of observation, you would be qualified to study technical and complicated subjects, like science, computers or maybe even astrology. Moon is in 20 Degrees Libra. Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work -- you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project -- you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity. Mercury is in 29 Degrees Aquarius. You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things. Venus is in 26 Degrees Pisces. You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete. Mars is in 12 Degrees Virgo. Very careful and systematic, you pay great attention to details. You are always seeking perfection and sometimes get bogged down searching for the ultimate when adequacy would have been sufficient. You dislike abstractions, preferring whatever is practical, useful and demonstrable. You have a strong and enduring sense of personal responsibility, and you demand that others be as responsible and upright as you are. Very critical of yourself and others, sometimes you carry this too far and become overly intolerant of others and their right to choose their own lifestyles. Jupiter is in 07 Degrees Virgo. You feel most expansive and at ease with yourself when you are doing something that you consider to be practical or useful. You enjoy being dutiful and carrying out responsibilities. You gladly take on the little tasks that others seem to want to avoid. At times, you carry things to extremes and feel guilty anytime you do something that you consider to be self-indulgent. While it is appropriate for you to demand little for yourself in life, try to loosen up once in a while -- go out on a fling and enjoy yourself! Saturn is in 26 Degrees Virgo. Your life must be orderly and practical and full of known and familiar routines in order for you to feel comfortable with yourself. Be careful, however, not to let "order" become the be-all and end-all of your life, or you may become cold, crass and unfeeling. Doing useful, practical things boosts your self- esteem. Abstract concepts and reasoning seem frivolous and a waste of time to you. You are very critical of yourself (and others), indeed at times quite self-deprecating. Try to relax a bit and allow yourself the freedom to fail once in a while. However, you probably won't fail very often because you are such a perfectionist. Uranus is in 25 Degrees Scorpio. You, and your peer group, demand to confront life at its deepest and most meaningful levels. Very compulsive and obsessive in your approach to everything, you will avoid anything that is casual or superficial, especially when it comes to relationships. You will seek out and explore new methods of healing as well as different ways to deal with deep-seated emotional problems. Neptune is in 22 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village." Pluto is in 21 Degrees Libra. For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly. N. Node is in 29 Degrees Leo. You prefer to take the leadership role when it comes to dealing with others. You enjoy administering and organizing group activities. Others tend to listen to your suggestions because you aren't usually overly domineering or patronizing in your interactions. You love to entertain in a big way -- you're at your best when throwing a large and lavish party. Your popularity and social success are assured as long as you don't take others for granted -- resist the temptation to become snobbish and arrogant. 26 agosto My Eyes HurtYou know when you have an awesome day you just don't expect to have an awful day the next day. I had to say goodbye to someone I care about today. Of course we'll still talk but it's never the same. I'm sad. Being in the emotional state I have been I cried of course.
My reaction to most strong emotions is to cry. I don't ever get angry which is wierd, I just get upset. Sometimes it's really frustrating. I'd just like to get spitting mad sometimes. That way I could throw something, or hit a pillow and feel better instead of crying. My eyes get swollen and they hurt like crazy.
Enough of that. Now is the time for me. I have decided this. I need to focus on me and just live life to the fullest and not worry about anything else. I might get a new job and that would be awesome. It will be a great thing to take up my time. I'll study and be the best CICU nurse that I can be. I love learning new things and I really perform better when I'm challenged. It will be exciting, new, and one step closer to going back to school.
I love where I live, but it might be good for me to go to school somewhere else for a new experience. My sister misses home and family, but she has told me there are so many new things to see and occupy her time that it's really cool. I could do that. I know I'm naturally a homebody but I think it would be good. I need to not be afraid of being alone/lonely. That's a tough thing for me. I'm much more of a social person.
I'm completely babbling as usual so sorry for that. Of course, this is my blog so I can write whatever I want. I like for people to come visit and comment, however, if I offend someone or they don't like what I am writing about, they don't have to come back and visit me I suppose.
My good friend is taking me out tonight to get my mind off things and to cheer me up. Knowing her she will try to get me drunk.
heehee It wouldn't be so bad I suppose. I haven't been "out out" in about 4 months so it will be good. I'm not sure what else to write about. My parents are gone for the weekend visiting my sister in Denton, TX so it's just me up here. I have to work this weekend. I hope that work has calmed down a bit. The last week I worked was probably the roughest I've ever been at the hospital. I'm tired!! No more deaths for a while I hope. Appreciate and love your friends and family. They are there for you when you need them most and support you no matter what. Anyway, that's it for me for now. Leave a comment, let me know how you're doing, it would make my day. I hope everyone is well in blog land. Love you all!! 25 agosto QuickyNo not like that for all you sick minded people like me. Just been a long day so I need to get some sleep. It was a difficult day today. I didn't think things could get any busier at work but they did tonight. I didn't hardly sit down the whole night. Day shift left a mess for me to clean up - left a lot for me to do, they weren't literally messy. The worse part was that the VAD person that I was talking about on my blog on Monday passed away today. As soon as I found out I just couldn't help crying. We all did really. She was intubated (breathing tube) and had an infection throughout her body. She just wasn't going to get any better. So her family decided to turn her VAD off that was helping pump the blood around her body. Her own heart didn't even last more than a few seconds. It's extremely sad when something like this happens. A person fights so hard for life, going as far as putting a machine in their body to prolong their life long enough to get a transplant which we never know when one will come up that will be the right size, blood type, antibodies, etc. It's a chance. People fight so hard for life. We get to know these people so well. They spend months and months with us. Our unit is their home. They get to know us individually and we get to know them in return. It's so hard. The flip side of the situation is that we also get patients who don't take care of themselves at all. They're obese, smoke, drink, do drugs, and just abuse their gift of life to the nth degree. Or people who overdose, especially the young ones. They think life isn't worth living. It's just the selfish way out. I'm not saying that I've never felt desperate, depressed, faithless, or like life isn't going to get better, but you think about the people who care about you if nothing else and think how they would feel if you were gone. NO MATTER WHAT these people will miss you and it's too selfish to take your life away from them. I want to take these people into the room of a heart transplant patient or a VAD and say, "Look what they are doing to live. It's not an easy thing. It's painful. It's hard work, physically and mentally. It's months of sitting in a hospital. It's months of rehabilitation. You're never the same after an experience like this, but still life is so much worth living they are willing to go through all this and you are throwing your healthy body, your gift away. These people would kill to have that." I feel very strongly about this as you can see. Each time one of our special patients that we've gotten to know pass away it's very hard. It brings up these feelings of unfairness. But, this is life. People live, and people die. Each person is special and we remember them and go on trying to help the next one. I must keep this in mind. She had more time with her husband and family that she might not have had. Okay I need to get some sleeps. Since I have written about someone special that has passed, I am not going to put smileys in this blog. It just doesn't seem right. I hope everyone is having a good week. Goodnight. 24 agosto Today is TuesdayI feel very subdued right now.
Maybe it's because I'm exhuasted. There are some times when you're just tired and then there are others where you are tired to the bone.  Today is one of those. I know you're thinking, "Why the heck aren't you just going to bed?"  Well I need to wind down from work just like the next person. My day just happens to end at 11:30pm and I have things on my mind.  Monday my family left.
I got up early to see them off. I was sad  to see them go, but life returns to normal. I had an appointment before work that went well. Work was steady. Our floor is very full. I had 4 patients  and then an admit towards the beginning of the shift. I was running all night to try to catch up. My new patient was a VAD (Ventricular Assist Device). Basically it's an external pump that pumps  the blood around the body when the heart  is too sick  or worn out to do it. Saves the patient's life until they can get a transplant. This particular patient had a VAD on the left and right side of the heart. Most of the time a person only has Left sided heart failure.  Anyway, that's all technical stuff. Her VAD was infected. This is bad because while living tissue can be treated with antibiotics and cured, a metal VAD doesn't get better very easily or "heal" with antibiotics. Thus the patient is infected and this leads to death eventually. This person was very sick.  She had too much fluid on her body but her kindneys weren't working. So I was extremely busy.  Just when I was getting caught up I was poked by a used needle.  *Sigh* I had already decided to stay over until 3:30am because the night shift was short which was a good thing because I was stuck in the ER well past the end of my shift filling out paperwork  and getting blood tests.  It was my first time with this and not an experience I want to have again. It's a pain!  I'm sure everything will be fine I'm not worried about it. "Low Risk" as they call it.I didn't fall asleep until 5am of course and woke up at 8 or 9am. Sheesh no sleep!
Went and worked  out  because  I thought it might wake me up a bit. It helped a little bit. I just need to go. I don't want to slack off again. I was definately feeling the lack of sleep at work. We were super busy again. As soon as one person left we'd get another in. My very sick VAD patient had to go to the CICU.
 I visited her before work and she looked bad. I hope she does okay. On a good note I talked to the nurse manager of the CICU. She told me there were open positions
and that I should be hearing from her next week. WOO HOO!! I would be so excited  to finally get a job down there. I've been waiting patiently (yes I was patient - only certain things I'm not ). My perserverance has paid off and shown her how much I want to work in the CICU and my dedication. I hope I get a call  next week telling me that I'm going to start down there.  It would take me one step closer to going back to schoo. I need to keep studying and make sure I know my stuff. I know it will be a challenge.I was loosing steam
 by the end of my shift tonight. They asked me to stay over again, but I didn't think it was a good idea. Now for some feelings. I am a female. And I know I'm not alone in that we have insecurities  , we think too much , try to find meaning in everything  , and just are sensitive . I know these things about me. There are certain things I want so bad but are always out of my reach. I want a healthy relationship. Not something that is just full of instant gratifications and then disapointment  and  hurt. I've had many of those in the past. Right now, I should be enjoying every minute to the fullest; instead I feel lonely a lot. Why is this? I have a lot of friends that  I'm close to. We have very different schedules and situations which make it hard to do things together, but we make it work. When something comes up that I feel is worth it, I put my whole heart  into it, give 100%. Why doesn't everyone work like that? It makes a person feel very undesirable  and not worth anyones time  when that isn't reciprocated. Is this just me being totally insecure and stupid?  I have worked very hard at trying to be positive. It's a difficult thing to do with the field I am in, not to mention my personal life - my sister leaving and my father's heart attack. Okay, now I'm just totally rambling and not making any sense. My lack of sleep  is catching up to me. I think I must go to bed.  If anyone would like to offer advice, share experiences, or just drop me a line, I would love it.  Good night. I hope everyone out in blog land  is donig well.21 agosto WeekendWell it was a lovely
 weekend. The weather was great and so was the company. Friday I got my car fixed.  The alignment was off and I needed a new tire.  The company works with my parents so they gave me a deal which was nice. I appreciated that. I went shopping   for a bit and returned some stuff that I bought and decided not to keep.  I do that sometimes! Then I went to a friend's BBQ  - it was her son's birthday.  I had a good time. I was going to go out  after the BBQ  but ended up going home and being really tired. It was nice to catch up on some sleep. Saturday I headed up to my parent's house to swim
 and I ran into the whole family going down to Costco. So I ended up going there with them and taking my mom back so my dad could go to a car show.  My grandma  , aunt  , uncle  , and cousins  went to Old Navy to go shopping. My mom  and I had a really nice time just the two of us. I helped her set up for the BBQ  we were having at my parents house and then went home and got ready. We had the whole family and my mom's cousins etc over. It was a great time. The kid's swam  and everyone just talked. We haven't seen everyone in quite a while. My little cousin opened his birthday presents  and loved them of course. It was a big day though. For some reason I was exhausted so I didn't stay super late and went right to bed. I'm getting old!!  :) heeheeToday my cousins
(they're 8 and 5) called  me in the morning  and were so excited  because their mom said it was okay if they came over to my house. So I went to my parents picked them up and brought them over. My cat  wasn't supper nice to them. She was hissing and being scared. Poor thing, she just isn't very social. I wish she was. We didn't stay at my place too long because the kids wanted to go to McDonalds. So I took them there to eat and let them play on the "big toy"  for a quite a while. They had a blast!! I was the best ever according to them. :) heehee Just for good measure I got them some ice cream  afterwords. Poor things were so full  they didn't eat all of it but that's okay, neither did I. Then we went and got a couple of loves of bread and went to the park  to feed the ducks.  I love to feed the ducks.  A lot of the time I'll just go to the park in the mornings and sit by the pond to feed the ducks. It's really nice there. So we fed the ducks and then they played  for a while. Then we headed back to my parents house. I really had a good time. Boy was I pooped though. I'm not used to two energetic kids.  They tucker you out!! My mom, dad, and I took a little snooze
on the couch while my aunt, uncle, and cousins went out for a bit. They are leaving tomorrow to go back to Alaska.  I'll be sad to see them go. I wish that they lived here. I know my cousins would like to live here and my aunt too. However, my uncle loves it up there so that's that. Okay a pet peeve. I hate it when you call someone and they don't call you back right away.
I am very impatient though with these kinds of things and I know this so that's my fault. However, I just wish that I would get a more prompt call back. Makes me feel like the people I call  don't care to talk to me when they don't call back. I know this is ridiculus, but I can't help feeling this way. Anyone feel the same way or is it just me?  Seems like you should treat people like they matter and call them back. Especially when it's someone you're close to.
 Well let me know what you think. Thanks!      19 agosto ShortI haven't been really blogging
much the last few days. It's been a rough  week for me. For starters my dad's  test results  came back on wednesday. Now I'm a cardiac nurse , however, this is my father. I let my heart take over and wasn't really thinking of course. I wanted the tests to show an improvement so bad. I had convinced myself that he was doing so well (which he is) and his ECHO and Viability Study, Nuclear study, etc would show this. I was in for a huge disappointment. His ECHO hasn't changed. His Ejection Fraction is still 30% aka his heart only pumps out 30% of the blood in his heart - not good.  The Viability study showd that the front bottom of his heart is dead. Bypass surgery wont help either because the area that the narrowed artery feeds is already dead. Here drops my stomach.  I feel like I want to puke. The look on my dad's face mirrors  how I feel. Well, where do we go from here. As long as he's feeling good he can do what he wants. I didn't go to work. I was really upset but I didn't show that to my parents. I kept up a positive face and said everything would be fine and he feels good so that is what matters. Don't focus on the numbers. Inside, I'm feeling like I've been hit by a train.  This is my father. The strongest man I know  , mentally and physically.  He is sensitive but he's also the hardest working  person I've ever met  , ambitious  , always gives 150%  , I could go on and on.  It's hard for me to know that he is physically limited now. I don't want to see him that way. I wish I didn't know as much as I do sometimes. It makes things a lot hard for me. I know what happens when he may/does deteriorate in time. I've been trying so hard to be positive but after all that I was sitting at home by myself and I just started crying.  I miss  my sister. I needed to have here here to give me a hug  and just listen.  I ended up calling her and as bad as I felt for dumping on her I think she might have been glad to be included. I dunno. I've been strong through this whole thing and I knew it would hit me eventually. I didn't want anyone to focus on the numbers and I kept telling them that because I knew what they could be, but I didn't follow my own advice. I was so convinced they would be better. Okay, I'm done.Work went well tonight.
Had to deal with some very upset families.  Sometimes listening and telling them I'm sorry, I know this is hard, I understand, we're here for you and (said patient), what can I do to make it better. Most of the time people just need to vent a bit and appreciate that you're listening.  They never feel like you given enough time, we try our best. I watched the Dirty Dozen last night.
 heehee I'm usually not into war movies and older movies  but it was pretty good! I was so tired though I don't know how I stayed awake. I was physically and mentally drained.I think my cat
missed me all these days working and being out and about. She's been sitting next to me just watching me type. Occasionally she'll look over at me and lick my arm just to say, "Mom, I missed you." Then she'll lean over and fall asleep again. heeheeI bought the Wedding Date
 on tuesday. My DVD buying problem hasn't lessened much. I love that movie it's so cute!! I'm such a  romantic,  I love those romantic comedies.  I also got ED TV. I have been looking for it forever and finally found it at Hastings when I bought the other one. It's cute. Again a chick flick  I know. Those are the kind of movies I can just put on and forget about everything going on and have a happy  ending and feel good at the end. You just need a feel  good  flick once and a while, or more!  Okay well this was supposed to be short and now it's not. I need to go to bed
because I have to get my car  fixed tomorrow. It needs to be aligned and have a tire replaced. Arg what a pain.  Hope you all had a wonderful day.  I'll look forward to chatting with you all later!! |
You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: |
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